Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Special for you, friend^^ written on 25/3/09


WOW, don’t know what had happen on me. Every time when I sleep, I’ll sleep like an unconscious people. Get a big shock after have a cat nap. When I wake up, no one is at home, I saw my clock, and it was 7.22 o’clock. I thought I was 7.22am; I wander why I don’t put on alarm to wake me up? Oh my god, then should I go to school immediately? We got chemistry experiment today! But what if I am late and when I reach school, they were all finish assembly and were all in class and the teacher is teaching?? I started to blame my mum of not waking me up. I feel that I can’t found my mum; she’ll be at work at that time.

I walked to her room and I rally cant found her. I started to feel panic, why everything seems to happen so odd and I don’t have the memory of why waking up sooooooo~ late. Then I realize that I’m still wearing school uniform, “wow, so good, then I can rush to school now!”. But wait a minute, it’s impossible for me to sleep one whole night and wake up so late, looking back to the date of today, I was written 25 March 2009. It was the evening of the same day!!!


Hi, QQ twinkle bell is here. Hems…... have a little anxious and nervous; the thing is that I’m going to write this article in English. I've been writhing blog for 2 years but this is the 1st time that I use the English Language, this is because I’m rally poor in English Spelling. But here, I got no choice, I gonna write it for a friend who were new to my world and don’t know my language, and I think this is the only way which can made you understand me better. Hope u can read this and be serious of what I mention here. I hope after all this; I don’t need to repeat it.

I've sleep on this problem for very long time, and I’m now very sure with the problem of what I want and what I don’t want. Since my result is not better than other in my teenage career, but I had finally chosen the hardest way to go, STPM. And now, I’m suffering in it. Thus, I’ve made my decision of working harder and to pay more effort in study. Every night, I’ve to sleep on those unfinishing homework and I feel frustrated of unable to finish it. I’d put all my heart into the study, and I rally cant separated my heart of doing extra thing.

I really don’t want to get into any relationship currently. Sorry to say that my heart is not here, and I think this is not a suitable time to start a relationship. I feel that I am mature enough to chose not to start now and great to have a lot mature reasons. Since we are just a student, I won’t have the money for dating. The responsibility of student is to study and so I would not want myself to waste time on doing things that other then study.

It’s not worth for you to wait for me like that and why you instill of waiting? What is a relationship, do you know it? This is the inter-understanding of the couple. I don’t know you before this and you ask me that question that day. After receiving the massage that day, yap the 1st thing that I feel is happy “is it because of my attractiveness?”. “See, someone has falling into the love river because of it!” latter when I receive more and more text massage from you, I realize that I shouldn’t have had that feeling before. It will gain misunderstood in between us, because I just want to be friend with you….. Ayah, I don’t know how to express the feeling ah!

What I can explain is:
--------I don’t reply your massage; because I don’t used to read the text massage that I receive on the spot, I’m busy most of the time and always forget to reply it or what to reply after it... Sometime I don’t even know how to explain everything with you by just massaging. Since my dad pays the phone bill for me and I would not want to burden him of pay much in the bill.

---------I choose not to sit beside you that day, because after coming back from judo lesson, I had sweat over my back and I choose not to sit in a crowded area, as I’ll feel embarrass of my smell. The body smell and the sweat smell… because I, myself, am going to be fainted of smelling this.

---------I do not park my car at Metro Point. 1st is that I didn’t read your massage before going tuition and I realize the massage just after the tuition. 2nd is that I would not choose to park my car so far if there is a car park lot near tuition center. I’m willing to pay a little for the conveniences.

--------My friend was rally absent for the chemistry tuition class, and thus I borrow my note for her, instead of you. From my points of view, I think she need it more urges then you are. On the another hand, I haven’t agree to lent it to you, not because of I am selfish, but because I really very cherish the note, and want to avoided any accident happen onto it. To solve this problem, I hope that you can accept me to photocopy it for you, instead of borrowing the whole set of it.

Thursday, March 19, 2009

心情发泄之雨后的彩虹


原来人性才是世界上最恐怖的动物.
平时那无论什么事情发生,都能保持心情开朗,客观想法的我,去了哪里...???
为什么就只有我,不能习惯他们的性格??
为什么又要让我用自我捶眠的方法来接受这事实??
和一个人相处就一定要接受她的性格吗??

就如我座右铭所说的:
我不是没有用,我只是容易把事情看得太重,把自己看得太轻.
每当我情绪管理失败,我终是很失蘅...
我竟然为了他们,有自轻的想法...
你说我傻不傻!!!!!!

辅导师说过,世界上的完美主意者,他们其实都不完美,
因为他们心里最深出,其实是最优郁的....
这说中了我的心声!!!!!!

我真的很想自己能够脱离这现实,
有谁不希望自己什么事情都能作得完美呢?!!!!
我知道和别人作PROJECT,是难免会隅到意见向撞....
很多我想出能让我眼前能完美的事情,就此不完美了....
我只能用忍的来接受事实了....

我把STPM看得很重,比我生命还重要,
这些是成绩一路走来有很好的人所不能了解的!!!
他们的慢动作,他们哪作什么事情都慢慢模的,
让我每次遇到他们就很想马上去撞墙...
是我习惯了快的生活吗...???
还是我习惯了压力的生活...????
因为他们作了一点点的东西,
就很容易的就说要RELAX下什么的.....

还是因为PROJECT的事情....
叫了我去她家,说要一起作PROJECT的事情,
大老远去到她家,作些我自己家里都可以作好的事情!!!
车油浪费了,没关系!!
还劳烦我这个宅女到他们家看他们做戏!!!!!!!!
这是我不能容忍的!

今天又要去她家....
我真的真的很不想去!!!!
我狠之不得可以永远不去MAKOTA这个地方!!!!
至少在自己家里,我冷气,电脑,要开多少,多久都可以...
我想用日本樱花来形容自己:
只有那寒冷的天气,才能看到我灿烂的笑容!!!
在酷热的天气下,我就是一个严重优郁证的恶魔!!!!

就是这样,很多时候,我都不了解自己.
在他们(这班新朋友)面前,很多时候,
我都觉得自己很可恶,很多事情,很多原因,很多很多的缺点....
不知道那一天开始,我很讨厌自己,讨厌这可恶的自己...
所以很多时候觉得自己好象患了人格分裂证示的....
快要崩溃了!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

CJ的朋友们,虽然认识这么久了,
但是我还是要说一个这么可气的话:
谢谢你们,有你们真好!!!
谢谢你们和我谈心,让我有机会,很轻松的吐出心里话,
让我笑笑,没烦恼....
我会发觉原来最幽默的人就是你们了!!!!
我们今晚再聊个够!!!!
让我再当一次雨后的彩虹^^

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

QQ的校园服装秀





我觉得慢慢的,我抓到办活动的技巧了...你知道是什么吗...?!哈哈,我觉得办活动,创办人最需要的条件就是信心,没有信心,什么事情都不能如愿进行.当然信心只是部分的条件.另外一课就是
要有机灵的头脑...看下面发生什么事吧^^




没错,就是服装秀,但并不是普通的服装秀,
是切切实实的校园服装秀,只是材料方面....
哈哈,有点"特别"!!


今天出席活动的成员很少,考试期再加上下雨天....牺牲了很多时间和经历筹备和想出了好玩的游戏,但是就是因为很少成员出席,所以临时换了节目!利害的是某某人竟然可以在短短的1分钟内想到了这活动:换来校园服装秀,男生要设计他们理想中美丽的女生校服,女生则设计男生校服.不知道之前有没有其他学会的也举办过这活动没有,但是这真是我们的某某人临时想出来的后备活动哦!哈哈,猜猜它是谁想出来的^^它象不象学记活动呢???



这次的节目很成功,大家都玩得不渝乐呼.虽然宗子目的,我们只是达到了一半:宗子是发挥团员的艺术天分,目的是顺便设计团服.设计团服的目的被忽略了,但是团员得到的是远比宗子所设的.到头来还要老师来安慰我说,节目最珍贵的是能够让团员乐在其中...看到大家的努力和参与,所以老师决定让财政动用ELS的团费,买份小礼物送给在场的参赛者^^老师的这个决定,真的让甚为筹委的我很开心哦...